I have been meaning to write this post since Tuesday, but for some reason I have been putting it off. As I did last year (although a couple of months earlier), I wanted to sit and look back this past school year. Even though us York students had to endure the 2008-2009 Cupe 3903 strike which lasted about 2 months and half (I stand to be corrected), this year really flew by. As I've been discussing with some of my friends that are of my age, it's honestly incredible how we are now considered to be in 3rd year. As cliché I know I might sound, it honestly feels that it was not so long ago that I started Uni and here I am pretty much half way done my undergraduate degree.
I had mentioned in last year's post that: "I wonder just how much more growth in terms of intellect, character, and more importantly as a whole person I will endure in following years to come…"
Well, I can say without hesitation that I've learn a LOT this year. I actually know some muscles of the body now, compared to my first day in my Anatomy lab when I didn't even know where traps were (I don't work out...it's not my fault). Of course I learned a great amount of psychological disorders, important landmarks of life that were ideal for a optimized development. I also realized how stats will actually be very useful if I end up doing research one day.
Most importantly, as whole, I think I have been able to come to terms with knowing what I want and being able to say it. I have this deep fear of being a failure and I believe that has always played an important role causing me to fear admitting what I want to do or what I want in life. See unconsciously in my mind, I think that when you don't state what you want in definite way and if you are unsuccessful at reaching that goal, it's less of a failure. It's less of a failure since you never really admitted that this was exactly what you wanted. You never fully committed all you had to this particular goal and then failed. You just sort of wanted to try and if you weren't able to attain it, it didn't really matter. ..I know ..to some this might not be making sense at all and I truly apologize...
Anyway, what I was trying to say is that for once in my life, I have truly been be able to say what I WANT in life. Whether it be academically or in terms of my personal life. For once, I'm trying to fully admit what I want and to try and get it or get there. Furthermore, if I am not able to get it or get there, then I'll do my best to get back up and try again. I am not saying that it will be easy and I know things are easier said than done, but if you really want something, then it wouldn't hurt to give it your all.
During exam time when I was taking a break I found this clip on youtube. It's from the show Grey's Anatomy. For the few people who read this blog, if you chose to watch the video, I hope you see the life "lesson" I see. After seeing that clip, not only did it make me sad, it made me realize that we should live a life where we end up with least amount of "what if's" when we look back at our lives...Life is too short and we only live once....take a leap!
Lastly I wanted to say, this was a good year. Cheers to all the new friends I've made, to the old that I've kept and to the intellectual and personal growth I have made.
I had mentioned in last year's post that: "I wonder just how much more growth in terms of intellect, character, and more importantly as a whole person I will endure in following years to come…"
Well, I can say without hesitation that I've learn a LOT this year. I actually know some muscles of the body now, compared to my first day in my Anatomy lab when I didn't even know where traps were (I don't work out...it's not my fault). Of course I learned a great amount of psychological disorders, important landmarks of life that were ideal for a optimized development. I also realized how stats will actually be very useful if I end up doing research one day.
Most importantly, as whole, I think I have been able to come to terms with knowing what I want and being able to say it. I have this deep fear of being a failure and I believe that has always played an important role causing me to fear admitting what I want to do or what I want in life. See unconsciously in my mind, I think that when you don't state what you want in definite way and if you are unsuccessful at reaching that goal, it's less of a failure. It's less of a failure since you never really admitted that this was exactly what you wanted. You never fully committed all you had to this particular goal and then failed. You just sort of wanted to try and if you weren't able to attain it, it didn't really matter. ..I know ..to some this might not be making sense at all and I truly apologize...
Anyway, what I was trying to say is that for once in my life, I have truly been be able to say what I WANT in life. Whether it be academically or in terms of my personal life. For once, I'm trying to fully admit what I want and to try and get it or get there. Furthermore, if I am not able to get it or get there, then I'll do my best to get back up and try again. I am not saying that it will be easy and I know things are easier said than done, but if you really want something, then it wouldn't hurt to give it your all.
During exam time when I was taking a break I found this clip on youtube. It's from the show Grey's Anatomy. For the few people who read this blog, if you chose to watch the video, I hope you see the life "lesson" I see. After seeing that clip, not only did it make me sad, it made me realize that we should live a life where we end up with least amount of "what if's" when we look back at our lives...Life is too short and we only live once....take a leap!
Lastly I wanted to say, this was a good year. Cheers to all the new friends I've made, to the old that I've kept and to the intellectual and personal growth I have made.
